Weeks three and four

I felt different for the next couple of days. My breasts were tender and I was having crazy dreams. Nine days after I ovulated, I had some tears and mood swings. Eleven days after I ovulated I started having light cramps. And then, for a couple of days, I felt absolutely normal.

Any real or imagined “symptoms” of pregnancy disappeared, and all I felt was crazy as I counted the days until I could take a pregnancy test and get results.

I took one on mother’s day, ten days after I ovulated. Nothing.

Two days later, I sneaked into the bathroom in the school hallway.  My students were mostly gone for the day.  And there it was: a little blue cross. I burst into tears.

My only thought: I’m not ready for this.

My husband’s only thought, when I told him that night on our dinner date at Nana’s Soup House: happiness and unbelief.

We’re having a baby.